Day 60

Day 60- What you learned from doing this challenge

Hmmm. I don't know if I really learned anything. But it was nice to write about things I usually don't write about.

I'm sad this challenge is over :[

Day 59

Day 59- What you live for

Hmmm. I live for everything. I live for the good and the bad, the happy and the sad. I live for my opinions, I live for my goals. I live for everything there is to live for.

Day 58

Day 58- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness?

Hmm. There was this one morning where I was walking, and it wasn't too hot or cold out. There was a really nice breeze in the air. I was listening to Au Revior Simone. And I was just noticing how beautiful the world is. The sun was shining through the clouds in that way that looks magical. And I just remember feeling so at peace, and so content. I think I felt that way because things just felt right.

My definition of happiness is being content. Being content in who you are, what you have done and how you have lived. It doesn't mean you've loved every second of your live, or that you are happy with every decision you've ever made. It means being ok with it all, and being ok with the world. It's not this super-duper ecstatic thing, it's calm, it's content.

Day 57

Day 57- Your definition of the meaning of life

Well...I don't know if I really think there is a bigger meaning of life. I mean I think life is for living, for trying to make yourself as happy as you can be, and for accepting the bad with the good. I personally don't really care if there is an afterlife, or if there is a bigger meaning or whatnot. I just know that for me, life is here, we all have our choices and we all have to learn how to deal with them.

Day 56

Day 56- Your definition of love

Wow, this is a deep one! Hmm. Let me think. Well there are a lot of types of loves. Like the type of love I have for my family would definitely be different from the type of love I would have for a man. But I'll explain the type of love for a man. So I think love is all about understanding. I mean, we are all different people, and for the most part we don't want to be with people that are 99% like us. So to love some one like that is to accept their differences. And to accept their individuality. Love is about having some one you can trust and some one you can rely on, but having that same person being ok with the fact that you have your own wants and needs. Love is about companionship. I mean obviously there has to be attraction, but without companionship, attraction doesn't last. Love doesn't mean loving some one unconditionally, and it doesn't mean loving everything about a person. It's about what you do with the aspects you don't like. It's about combining two lives even if they don't fit perfectly. It's about wanting to be together and learning new things about each other and knowing each other. Mostly, I think love is being able to be around some one and not having to talk or constantly be entertained, it's about being around some one and being satisfied.

I don't know. I can't really explain love. It's really just a shot in a barrel. If you find the right person, no one is to say that they will be the right person forever. But that's ok, because if it isn't anything else, love can be fleeting.

Day 55

Day 55- Something you would do if you knew no one would stop you or if you knew you wouldn't fail

I'd spend my life writing. I wouldn't worry about getting a real job, I would just write and go to school. I wouldn't worry about not doing well or being poor, I would just do it. That would be so nice.

I can't believe I'm almost done with this challenge! It's kind of sad!

Day 54

Day 54- Something you did as a child that everyone remembered you for

Well I don't think I did anything in particular that people remembered me for. Like there are things that I did that my family make fun of me for, but it's nothing people would remember me for. But, I did have something that people remembered me by. When I was younger my hair used to be a bit lighter and it was so curly that I basically had a white girl afro. It wasn't really a tight sort of afro, but it did look a bit like an afro. And everyone would always ask me where I got my curls from, and I would almost always respond with "From God's pocket." Yea, I was a lame kid.

Day 53

Day 53- Most awkward first impression you felt you've ever given

Hmm. I'm not really sure about this one. Like I don't know if I ever really come off at awkward in first impressions. I mean sometimes I come off as nonchalant or shy. And then if some one meets me first when I'm around friends then they will probably have the first impression of me as being funny, loud, and maybe a little bit obnoxious. I don't know if it's ever really awkward. I mean I don't know, because I imagine if it was really awkward I probably don't talk to those people anymore and it doesn't really matter to me.

Day 52

Day 52- Some one you would give your life for without question

Um pretty much any member of my immediate family. Like, Mono, Cat, Bri or my mom. I would do it without hesitation.

Day 51

Day 51- Your favorite medium of art

I recently had to answer this question for Art History. I really like Printmaking, but I also love mixed media stuff. I'm really into putting different things together to make one cohesive piece. And printmaking always looks so real to me...if that makes any sense. I like art that really takes work, like carving wood or searching to find the perfect part for your piece. When I do art like that I always feel so much more accomplished.

Day 50

Day 50- A Band you immediately liked and the song that made you like them.

Ok, so I think one band I immediately liked was Brand New. And I feel like they are one band that I feel like really grew with me. The song I heard that made me like them was Seventy times 7. And I probably liked it because I was feeling pretty angsty those days, and it's a pretty angsty song. And then my love for them continued with Deja Entendu. And again with The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me, and finally with Daisy. Each album is so different from the previous one, and I feel like each one fits me at the point it comes out. So good.

Day 49

Day 49- A passage from a book that has touched you

Hmf. I feel like I write about this all the time. But recently one quote from Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison has been in my brain. It's "You're not a serious person." I know that doesn't sound like much, but in the context of the book it was a lot. Like it's all about taking yourself and the world around you seriously. It's about taking all things into consideration. And I strive to be that way. For some reason that sentence just hit a chord with me.

Day 48

Day 48- A picture that makes you feel

Way to be vague! But, this picture does make me feel....it makes me feel horny! Bahahahahaha

Day 47

Day 47- What you want to be remembered for

Even though I sincerely doubt I will be remembered for all that long, I guess I'd like to be remembered for my interactions with people. I guess how I treat people, how I make them laugh. Or whatever. I don't really know. I'm not really too bothered about being remembered.

Day 46

Day 46- Something you want to do in the next five years

There's a lot of stuff I want to do in the next five years. Firstly, I want to get down to a weight that I'm happy with. I want to graduate college, maybe even get a masters degree. I want to get a real job that I like. And there's not much more after all of that. Those are mostly my goals. Oh maybe pay off a bit of my student loans.

I can't believe it's day 46 already! Crazy!

Day 45

Day 45- A moment, song, or phrase that has changed your life the most

Ok, so it isn't a song or a phrase, kind of a moment, but not really. It's a movie. So, I was knee deep in my depression...more like neck deep haha...and one evening I sat down to watch this movie. And this movie just made me realize something. It made me realize that we all go through crap, obviously some have it worse than others. And that the crap we go through shouldn't stop us from living our lives. I mean in the movie, this man goes through the Holocaust, he is basically skin and bones, but he pushes for his right to live his life, he survives. It is utterly amazing. And truly, it gave me inspiration. Watching this movie was the turning point in my life where I decided I wasn't going to sit idly by and let my depression take over my life. I know it might sound silly to others, but this movie really did change me. And it probably didn't exactly help my infatuation with the Jewish culture. I mean all the Jewish people were able to conquer such hate (I mean obviously too many died, but I mean the ones that did survive). Like I don't meet many Jewish people who hate every single German person. I don't see as much hatred and resentment from Jewish people. And I think that's also a big part of it. People will wrong you, but you just have to move on and live your life. That's what this movie made me realize, and it really did help me turn myself around.

Day 44

Day 44- Best Mash Up you've ever heard

Hmm, well when I heard this one on Glee, I was like sheeeeeyat!

But then before I even saw Des's I was thinking about this one too

But I like the Glee one better I think. So niceee

Day 43

Day 43- A memory that never fails to make you laugh

Hmmm. I don't know if I have a memory like that. I'm trying to think....Bahah the only one I can think of right now is kind of silly. Ok, so the one I can think of is when the kids in my english class in 11th grade decided to play a prank on my craptastic teacher. I really truly disliked this guy, and he was an awful teacher. So this one kid goes up to get the teacher to sign his hall pass. And he gave the teacher the pen and when the teacher pressed down the clicker thing, it shocked him. He jumped and made such a hilarious sound. Like honestly, there is no possible way to tell the story and make it as funny as the vision I have in my head. It always makes me smile haha.

Day 42

Day 42- Your favorite musical artist's life story

Sheeeeyat I don't know! I don't even know who I would consider my favorite musical artist! So I'm going to come up with a different thingy!

Day 42- Something you're obsessed with right now!

LOST! I have been watching this show like crazy! I mean intense shit! I only have two episodes left and I'm so sad! I don't want it to end!

Day 41

Day 41- Favorite picture of yourself ever taken

I don't think this is my favorite ever, but it is one of my most recent most liked pictures. Eh I don't know.