Right now I'm waiting to hear if Katie is going to show up at work. Because if she doesn't, I'm going to have to work. It's not fair. So many fucking times, I've tried to get a day off, and nope. But if some one doesn't show up, I take it upon myself to nap and be prepared for her to not show up. I'm hoping to God that she will, but if she doesn't, I'd be going in. It's not fair, and I am really sick of it. Like, why should I take it upon myself to do all this for a shitty job? I don't get it.
I just want to stop working. I mean for the summer, I will. But after that, I just really don't want to be there anymore. But the amount of debt I'm going to have scares me. Like I really just want to get the fuck out of there and actually enjoy my experience! I don't know. This is probably just a mood I'm in at this moment. I just wish I could stop putting all this responsibility on my back. I need to stop doing this to myself.
That's going to be one of my goals now, to stop taking on other people's responsibilities. And to stop caring so much about the money stuff, I mean, I'm gonna be in debt any way, and I'm doing what I can about it. There's not much else I can do.
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