Garrr.

I feel like I have so much stuff to figure out, yet when I sit down to actually figure it out, I get no where. I don't get it. Maybe at work today I will figure out whatever it is that I need to figure out. I think mostly it might be money and goals to finish before the end of summer. I don't know.

But in other news, today I got a lot of work done for my Senior Honors Seminar done. And it's not even the fun stuff! It's the tedious stuff! So that's awesome. And I'm finding all these really cool articles and stuff. I am really glad I chose this topic. I hope that by the time summer is done I am also done with the presentation part. And then I can do my presentation early so I don't have to worry about it all semester long. These are my hopes and dreams. Haha. I think I will get it done. All I need to do is continue to work on it a bit every day.

Another thing, I just tried on some size 16 pants, and they fit! I mean, they don't fit well, but they still fit. I think that by the time summer is over, they should fit well. That means that by the time I go back to school, I will hopefully be a size 16 in pants, and a size large in shirts. I don't even remember the last time I was this small. I don't really feel small, but in all technical senses, I am a lot smaller than when I started. This actually really makes me excited for when school starts up again.

I have also still been debating about the art major thing. I think I will need some input from some art professors before I make my decision. I'm already 99% sure Rob Stephens will tell me to do it, but I want to hear what Julia Franklin says as well. Maybe if I talk to Julia about it she will let some classes slide? Or maybe help me figure out how to get all of them done? I don't know. But, in other art news, I have been thinking a lot about my senior show. I am really excited for it. I think I am going to buy old school hard copies of my favorite books that have influenced me the most, and then destroy them. Then I'll take some stuff from each book and create the cover of my book. Plus I will also use different things as well, like pictures of my family members, and other things that have influenced me. And I think that on my mission statement, I will use the quote by Chuck Palahnuik, which says "Nothing of me is original, I am the combined effort of everyone I have ever known." I think that will be a main part of my theme. And even though I am not really sure about how possible this will be, I keep on seeing like glass/plexi-glass/see-through plastic display cases with the ripped up books inside. And then a dark paint on the walls and ceiling and floor. And the display cases will be back-lit so they look like they are sparkling. Then at the end of the room I'll have my created book, and maybe copies of it to sell. I also might have scattered parts of books on the floor, and sort of pretend that the room is my mind. Sort of like words and inspirations floating around in my head. And I might also hang the prints (??) that I'm doing for the book in the room. I'm not really sure. I know my ideas are really ambitious, but I am really truly excited about this. I hope it pans out well. But even if I don't get the display cases, I will probably just do like book shelves. I don't know. I have so many ideas.

So yea, that's what has been going on with me. I didn't get that much sleep for my overnight tonight, which pretty much blows, but whatever. An excedrin or two will fix that.

And in final news, I want a puppy so fucking bad.