The worst choices are the ones you don't even know you're making.

That's how I'm feeling right now. Because some times I feel like by choosing to come out here to Iowa, I also made choices that I didn't even know about. And I really don't think it's fair. I mean obviously things are going to change. But that shouldn't mean such a drastic change. And what's worse is that I seem to be one of the few that actually notices and feels this change.

I don't know. I think the worst part of it is that I don't understand it. Like if I got it, then it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe I'm the one that has changed. Maybe I'm remembering things differently. I don't know. I just would think that with all this technology, moving away wouldn't cause so many problems with family. Alack. I have to talk about this.