Since my parents are divorce and since I wouldn't write just one letter to both of them, I'm going to split them up.
Dear Father,
I am going to try really hard not to start or end this letter with 'Fuck you.' But to be honest, all I can thank you for is your sperm, and doing such a shitty job at parenting that I learned how not to act. Yes, you did provide for us for a very large portion of our childhood, however, no matter when asked, I would have preferred being poorer and having a more attentive father any day. You have forever ruined father-daughter relationships for me, to the point where I feel nervous about letting my children have a father. And I hate that you have made me the cliche I am. I'm done having the same conversation with you when you don't listen, and I'm done trying to help you when you refuse to even consider it. I don't respect you, and no matter what you say, and no matter how old I grow to be, I will never accept your mode of parenting. I'm sorry that your childhood was less than ideal, and I know that in comparison to your parents, you were somewhat of an improvement, but with the countless chances you have been given, I find it hard to pity you anymore. I don't feel anger for you anymore. I feel pure nonchalance about your existence. You are nothing to me.
Liz
Mommy,
You are one of the most amazing women I've ever come across. I don't think I could ever respect any one more than I respect you. Regardless of what others think, you have done an amazing job at raising us. Taking on the role of both mother and father is impossible for most, but you did it flawlessly. I can't thank you enough for the lessons you have taught me and for the love you have given me. I have utmost faith in you and your ability to be a mother. You make me laugh, and you make me feel good about myself. I couldn't ask for more. I love you forever and unconditionally.
Liz
So, I sound super angst-y in the first one, but whatever, that is how I feel for him. Actually, in all truth I would probably just send him a letter saying "Thanks for nothing." But all the same, this is pretty much it!
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