Grandma Death

I have decided that I want to grow up and be a version of Grandma Death from Donnie Darko. Except, instead of having that hairstyle, I'll have a kooky braid of gray-white hair. Also, instead of walking back and forth to check my mailbox, I'll walk back and forth waiting for the UPS man to drop off my books from Amazon. Also, kids won't come to me and ask me about time travel, but they will come to me and ask me literary questions. But besides that, I wanna be like her. Oh, and they won't call me Grandma Death, they'll call me Grandma Nerd Face. That will be the life.

I got my clothes from Old Navy today. Very excited. The V-Necks are super nice. I kind of want to buy some more, but I'll wait until I'm down another few sizes. I know it sounds bad, but I am just so glad to be able to be down to XL, and to be able to shop in not-plus size parts of stores. It's great! And soon enough I'll probably be down even more. I'd really like to get down to 16 size pants by the end of summer. I don't know if it will happen, but I'm going to try. Because right now I'm in size 20, but they are loosening up, so it is kind of possible. I think I can do it. I also want to be able to jog in summer. I hope.

I'm kind of getting nervous about the summer. Like I am kind of nervous that I'm gonna do nothing special. But I doubt it. I am gonna try really hard to lose a lot of weight and to be awesome at life. Also I hope I'll make a lot of money and read a lot of books. I think it will be good. I just hope that I don't hit another plateau. That would really suck. But I am going to keep on trying. That is all I can do.