Paper Heart

"Your love glass is half full" -Seth Rogen

So, this movie. I liked it quite a bit. Not too sure about the ending though. Let me explain. Ok, Charlyne Yi, a skeptic about love. Not about the fact of it existing, but whether she was capable of it. And to be honest, she kind of reminds me of me in the beginning. Like she doesn't seem to believe love is possible for her. And I kind of feel that way a lot. It's not a lack of confidence thing, it's just something about myself. Like, if I were to ever love, I would only want it to be that deep-down spooky love, the love that doesn't consume you, but fits into you. But I don't think I can ever find that for real. Not the marrying type of love, or the lifelong love. I'm ok with that though, it's just how it is. It doesn't mean I'll never love, it just means I won't be flighty about it.

So anyway, back to the movie. Charlyne is interviewing people about love and seeing what other people think. And of course she starts dating Michael Cera, which wasn't a part of the documentary. They get along really well, and she does like them. However, at the end when they were asked to go to Paris for the movie, she was very confused, and asked why, and what the point was. The director says, "Well to show that you've found happiness in your life, that you've found love." And she says, "But I didn't." With Michael Cera right next to her. Honestly, I loved this part, because she was so honest about it. Cera breaks up with her, and she and the director go to Paris. At one point she kind of breaks down and says that she's not sad because they broke up, but that she's sad because he can't be with her because she can't love him. She says that she doesn't want to have to pretend to love some one. And I loved this part. Because, why should anyone have to pretend to love some one else?

But then the ending makes me unsure. So she goes to his house, and says she missed him, and it kind of seems like everything is alright. And I don't know how I feel about this. I mean happy endings can be great and all, but sometimes I'm partial to unhappy endings, or endings that are more real. I think I would have been more satisfied if their relationship had ended. Or if they got back together but she was straight with him and said she didn't love him and she didn't want to pretend. I don't know. It kind of seemed un-ended. But overall I did like it.

There was one part I liked and related with a lot. Charlyne talks about a dream she had where she was dressed in a big pink fluffy gown, and she has long blonde beautiful hair. And she's basically overly feminine. And her director says "Do you think it's because of you am Mike?" And she says that maybe it is, that she doesn't want to become "the girlfriend," she doesn't want that label. Almost as if becoming a girlfriend takes away a part of a persons personality. Almost as if becoming a girlfriend means becoming just a feminine figurehead. This worries me. But I see so much truth in it. Like why should girlfriend/boyfriend be so different from friends? I mean duh, there is more romance, and there is sex, but why does that have to change a person? And does it change a person? I think real relationships shouldn't do that, they shouldn't change a person, the should just lead to growth within a person.

I liked it though. Good move Charlyne.