I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly, I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die

♥♥ Marina and the Diamonds ♥♥

Rule#8

Don't spit your chew in the urinal.

So yea, last night the urinal got clogged since some one spit their chew in there. Gross. People are REALLY not good with bathrooms are they?

Day 14

Day 14- A Picture of you and your family

I decided to just put up a picture of my family. I've already done one of all of us, so I changed it up a bit!

Day 13

Day 13- A letter to some one who hurt you recently

Ok, not too many people have hurt me recently, but there is something that I have realized that hurts. So I'll write to that person even though they didn't really do anything wrong.

Dear _______ :

Things have changed. They have, and no matter what I do to try and change it back, they are staying how they are now. That doesn't mean we still can't be friends, or close. But we will just have to learn how to deal with the new way of things. I know this is easy for you. For me it's not. I find myself feeling disconnected from you, even when we are together. We both have changed over the past year, and it's not a bad thing. But I'm going to have to learn how to deal with it. But you are going to have to learn to see it. I am going to try really hard to get over the fact that you suck at long distance communication. I am going to have to get over the fact that sometimes we won't talk for a few days. And truly, it does hurt me that you don't find it important to text me or talk to me at least once a day. But I will have to get over that too, because I know it's not malicious. I'm just sad that things had to change. But now that they have, I will learn to deal with it.

Liz.

Day 12

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Ok, so replacing Tumblr with Blog. I found out about Blogger like a gajillion year ago, but I was all into my LiveJournal at the time. I probably just found some one's and was like "Oh that exists..."

I decided to get a Blog because I was sick of my LJ because I wanted to write about personal stuff, but then it would backfire when people started to pay attention to it. And Tumblr just isn't really my scene for writing. And blogger just seemed to be a classier option. Also, I wanted one because I really wanted to remember all the stuff that happens to me during my college experience. So far it has been really good at everything I hoped it would be. Now if only it would allow me to post plain songs, it would be perfect.

I'm so psyched I got a date to the dance!!

This was my first purchase as a 21 year old! So awesome!! I had a good night last night. Got so fucked uppp. I love being 21.

Day 11

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends.

I hate these prompts. I need more pictures.

Tattoos.

So, I got 340 on my foot. And I got 1/5 on the side of my wrist. I'll go through my thinking and my ideas behind each one.

340: Ok, so that was my starting weight. I've wanted to put it somewhere for a while, because it is a big part of my life. Like just because I have lost weight and plan to lose more, I don't want to forget my past. I also want to remind myself of how well I've done so far and how much more I want and need to do.

1/5: I like this one a lot. I've been contemplating a tattoo to portray how I feel about my family for a while. And recently I have come up with this. I am one part of five people, I am a part of an entity. And when all five of us are together, we are fully whole. I like this idea.

So they barely hurt and the place was really clean and nice. Whenever I decide to get my next one, I will definitely go back!

Day 10

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Hmm. Ok. When I'll do it like this:

Sad: Set Fire to the Third Bar by Snow Patrol, Postal Service, Death Cab

Bored: Girl Talk, or any sort of rap to get my hyped up a bit

Hyped: Wiid by MC Chris, Kid Cudi, Marina and the Diamonds

Mad: I don't really get mad...

Happy: Minus the Bear, Anything really!!

Got some tattoos today, gonna post them!

Jane Austen's Fight Club

So amazing.

Day 9

Day 09- Something you're proud of in the last few days

Well when I originally saw this prompt, I was going to say fitting into size 16 pants. However, after this morning, I am going to saw my ability to work for 8.25 hours and then walk 2 miles home. Bri didn't come to pick me up this morning, so I walked home. I didn't think I would be able to do that after standing and working for 8 or so hours, but I did. So I am proud of myself for that. God knows I wouldn't have been able to do that a year and a half ago.

Day 8

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

This is something I can do!

1. Pay bills: This is self explanatory, but I'll indulge. I need to pay my bills to uphold the life I am used to living.
2. Get door fixed: My door does not close fully. I need a new one that does. I am going to alert my landlord about this situation.
3. Finish Summer course: I want to finish this class and get an A on it. I think it's possible.
4. Pay as much off credit card as possible: I've been really good about them all summer, up until now. Planning for Bri to come out and getting ready for school has killed me.
5. Get Tattoos: I want to get 2 tattoos the day before my birthday. I have a guy's card, so this should work out.
6. Have an amazing birthday!: I'm turning 21 in three days. I want it to rock.
7. Finish Sr. Honors Seminar: I really want to finish this before school starts up. I think that if I dedicate a few days to it, I can definitely do it.
8. Firmly get into size 16 pants: I can fit into 3 different brands of 16 pants. But I want to fit into size 16 comfortably before summer ends. I would like to know that over the summer I went from a size 20 to a size 16.
9. Lady Gaga concert: August 3rd. It will be amazing.
10. Laundry: Gotta clean my clothing. Yuck.
11. Read more books: I've only read 8 so far this summer. If I don't get to at least 10, I'm going to be very upset with myself.
12. Finish scarf: I've been working on a scarf, and it's really cute. I want to finish it in the next month.
13. Finish one story: This might not happen, because a lot of other things are more important, but I would like to finish one story before I get back to class.
14. Fix weird smell in Apartment: I think I may need a dehumidifier, but I don't know. I'm going to talk to my landlord about this too.
15. Go to the Art Museum: I really want to go to the Nelson-Atkins Museum before school starts. I want to spend a whole day there.

So I think that's really all for this month. I kind of did more than a month, but it's ok. I have so much stuff to do!

Day 7

Day 07- A picture of someone or something that has a big impact on you

My mom has had and still has a big impact on me in my life. She is an amazing lady. I love her so much.

Art Major?

So as of right now, it looks like I will be adding a Visual Communications Art Major to my life. There are only 3 more classes to take to get a full major. Right now I am leaning towards it. I'm actually really happy with this decision.

Day 6

Day 06- Your favorite Super hero and why

Hmm, this is a toughie. It's definitely not spiderman. And it's not Superman. Maybe it's Rorschach from Watchmen. He's totally kickass. Plus, he follows the codes of moral regardless of society's rules. He is really all about what is right. But I'm not really even sure about that. Because maybe it's not always for the best for all people. I'm going to think more on this. Maybe V from V for Vendetta? He is cool. He opens people's eyes to the wrong doings around them. I mean he's not like the typical super hero. I don't know.

Brianna Deegan

So, I went to the airport to pick Bri up yesterday! Now there will be two weeks of fun! I'm excited!

Day 5

Day 05- A Picture of somewhere you've been to

Mt. Ivy Diner. My favorite diner back in NY. I like the grilled cheese's, and the old-school feel. Plus it stays up all night long, which is super awesome. I went there after my prom with Cat and I ate waffle fries. They have really good banana pancakes. I wish there was a copy of it here.

Day 4

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

A habit I wish I didn't have is appearing to be nonchalant, and brushing people off that I actually want to get to know. I tend to seem aloof and uncaring due to my semi-conscious idea that when you seem aloof, people will be more prone to be interested in you. I am trying really hard to stop doing this, but it's a difficult fight.

Book #8 The Book Thief

"It kills me sometimes, how people die."

"'Don't punish yourself,' she heard her say again, but there would be punishment and pain, and there would be happiness, too. That was writing."

I have never read a book that has made me cry as much as this book made me cry. It was heartbreaking. Liesel is a young girl who loses her brother, and then is given up to a foster home. Thankfully she bonds with her foster father, from then on known as Papa. And this story is about her survival through World War II. She is a german girl, and her foster parents are hiding a jewish man named Max in their basement. It is an amazing story. Oh, and did I mention, Leisel steals books? And the narrator is Death? It's a different twist on things, but it is amazing.

The end is heart shattering though. Her town gets bombed, and she loses basically everyone she loves. Rudy, who is her best friend, and has been bugging her for a kiss since she met him, dies. He dies just after she begins to realize that she loves him and that she finally does want to kiss him. He was begging for a kiss throughout the book, and he never got one, until he was dead. It was probably one of the saddest things. And when her Papa dies, it's even worse. She was the person she loved most in the world. All of her books are ruined, the ones she stole, and the ones people made for her. I was bawling. It was an amazing book, and I would reccomend it to anyone.

Rule #7

Don't shit all over the walls and toilet and leave your shit-covered underwear in the corner.

I feel like this is self-explanatory. Fucking gross.

Day 3

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Ok, this is technically my family, but in all reality, they are all my best friends. I love them all so much, and I know that I can always go to at least one of them when I'm in need.

Also, I don't really have any pictures of me and my new GU friends, so I can't really post it. But all the same, I love my family and they are my truest friends.

The worst choices are the ones you don't even know you're making.

That's how I'm feeling right now. Because some times I feel like by choosing to come out here to Iowa, I also made choices that I didn't even know about. And I really don't think it's fair. I mean obviously things are going to change. But that shouldn't mean such a drastic change. And what's worse is that I seem to be one of the few that actually notices and feels this change.

I don't know. I think the worst part of it is that I don't understand it. Like if I got it, then it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe I'm the one that has changed. Maybe I'm remembering things differently. I don't know. I just would think that with all this technology, moving away wouldn't cause so many problems with family. Alack. I have to talk about this.

Day 2

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

Well this thing was made for tumblr, but this is my blog! So I will say the meaning of my blog name. My blog name is LamoniLizzie. The meaning behind it is due to my reason for writing. I wanted to write down my experiences while I'm in college and living in Lamoni. Thus, LamoniLizzie. It's not exactly the coolest blog name, but I like it.

Have you ever....

met a girl and thought she was dope?

Haha, no, but really, have you ever felt so content you could cry? Last night at the Kum & Go, or earlier this morning, I was sitting on the beer reading my book and listening to music and I just felt so content. I also felt like crying though. It was quite an interesting mixture of feelings. I liked it though!

Beauty and the Beast

I have decided today that the the Disney princess I am most like is Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Besides the whole brown hair thing, I am quite like her. I love books and I have a serious penchant for hairy men with libraries the size of God. But really, the above library is like an orgasm. True story. It has always been my dream library. Ah, where will I find my beast with such a wonderful library and talking furniture?

Day 1

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Ok, so that is my picture. Taken probably about 3 weeks ago. Now onto the facts!

1. I don't think I'm all that interesting

2. I'm a walking contradiction.

3. I'm totally ok with being a walking contradiction.

4. I like to do bad things sometimes, to even out my life.

5. I have lost a guestimate of about 80-100 pounds

6. My legs never ever seem to tan or even burn

7. My hands are probably my favorite part of my body.

8. I cut my own bangs.

9. My little toes look really weird.

10. I still wear my retainer even though my braces have been off for more than 4 years

11. I will be 21 in ten days

12. I hate being pitied or flattered unnecessarily

13. I believe I am destined to live a large portion of my life alone, and I'm ok with that.

14. I'm not as nonchalant as I seem.

15. I definitely need a pedicure.

So that's that. I'm excited about this one. When school starts though it might be hard to keep up! Ack!

60 Day Challenge

Ok, so I know I just finished the 30 day challenge at the end of June, but I liked doing it. It prompted a lot of stuff in my mind. So when I saw this one I figured why the heck not! I'll do Day one in another post. I hope I can stick to this one like I did the other one!

60 days

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has a big impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 60 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you?

Day 31- Guilty pleasure

Day 32- Something that inspires you

Day 33- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why

Day 34- What you imagine paradise to be like

Day 35- A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life

Day 36- Earliest thing you can remember

Day 37- Favorite cover of your favorite song

Day 38- Someone you think would make a good president

Day 39- Five things you want to see change

Day 40- A dream you had this past week described in detail

Day 41- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself

Day 42- Your favorite musical artist’s life story

Day 43- A memory that never fails to make you laugh

Day 44- Best mashup you’ve ever heard

Day 45- A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most.

Day 46- Something that you want to do within the next five years.

Day 47- What you want to remembered for.

Day 48- A picture that makes you feel

Day 49- A passage from a book that has touched you

Day 50- A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them

Day 51- Your favorite medium of art.

Day 52- Someone you would give your life up for without question.

Day 53- Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given

Day 54- Something you did as a child that other people remember you for.

Day 55- Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail.

Day 56- Your definition of love.

Day 57- Your definition of the meaning of life.

Day 58- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness?

Day 59- What you live for.

Day 60- Ways you believe you have grown over the past sixty days

Mouthful of Diamonds - Phantogram

wake up you're getting high on your own supply

oh baby you're still alive when you could've died

the world is not round because of you

you know i'm not around because of you

you've got a mouthful of diamonds

and a pocketful of secrets

i know you're never telling anyone

because the patterns they control your mind

those patterns take away my time

hello, goodbye

wasted you tell the truth when you could've lied

troubles are on the rise cause you're in disguise

and if it isn't me then pack your bags and leave

i wish i could believe

the devils won't take you back out to the salty seas

you've got a mouthful of diamonds

and a pocketful of secrets

i know you're never telling anyone

because the patterns they control your mind

those patterns take away my time

hello, goodbye

Hmm. this is good.

Drinkin' blunts, Smokin' forties

11 daysss! I will be 21 in 11 fucking days! I can't wait.

Just sayin'

I love the way my mouth tastes right now. I know that what I do to get it to taste like this is bad for me, but I'll enjoy it while it lasts.

Garrr.

I feel like I have so much stuff to figure out, yet when I sit down to actually figure it out, I get no where. I don't get it. Maybe at work today I will figure out whatever it is that I need to figure out. I think mostly it might be money and goals to finish before the end of summer. I don't know.

But in other news, today I got a lot of work done for my Senior Honors Seminar done. And it's not even the fun stuff! It's the tedious stuff! So that's awesome. And I'm finding all these really cool articles and stuff. I am really glad I chose this topic. I hope that by the time summer is done I am also done with the presentation part. And then I can do my presentation early so I don't have to worry about it all semester long. These are my hopes and dreams. Haha. I think I will get it done. All I need to do is continue to work on it a bit every day.

Another thing, I just tried on some size 16 pants, and they fit! I mean, they don't fit well, but they still fit. I think that by the time summer is over, they should fit well. That means that by the time I go back to school, I will hopefully be a size 16 in pants, and a size large in shirts. I don't even remember the last time I was this small. I don't really feel small, but in all technical senses, I am a lot smaller than when I started. This actually really makes me excited for when school starts up again.

I have also still been debating about the art major thing. I think I will need some input from some art professors before I make my decision. I'm already 99% sure Rob Stephens will tell me to do it, but I want to hear what Julia Franklin says as well. Maybe if I talk to Julia about it she will let some classes slide? Or maybe help me figure out how to get all of them done? I don't know. But, in other art news, I have been thinking a lot about my senior show. I am really excited for it. I think I am going to buy old school hard copies of my favorite books that have influenced me the most, and then destroy them. Then I'll take some stuff from each book and create the cover of my book. Plus I will also use different things as well, like pictures of my family members, and other things that have influenced me. And I think that on my mission statement, I will use the quote by Chuck Palahnuik, which says "Nothing of me is original, I am the combined effort of everyone I have ever known." I think that will be a main part of my theme. And even though I am not really sure about how possible this will be, I keep on seeing like glass/plexi-glass/see-through plastic display cases with the ripped up books inside. And then a dark paint on the walls and ceiling and floor. And the display cases will be back-lit so they look like they are sparkling. Then at the end of the room I'll have my created book, and maybe copies of it to sell. I also might have scattered parts of books on the floor, and sort of pretend that the room is my mind. Sort of like words and inspirations floating around in my head. And I might also hang the prints (??) that I'm doing for the book in the room. I'm not really sure. I know my ideas are really ambitious, but I am really truly excited about this. I hope it pans out well. But even if I don't get the display cases, I will probably just do like book shelves. I don't know. I have so many ideas.

So yea, that's what has been going on with me. I didn't get that much sleep for my overnight tonight, which pretty much blows, but whatever. An excedrin or two will fix that.

And in final news, I want a puppy so fucking bad.

It's half way through July already?!?!

What? I cannot believe how quickly this summer is going! It's crazy. But so far, I have had a lot of good times! Cat came out and visited for a while, Tati came and stayed with me while we did art camp, I went home to NY and had so much fun! I've done a lot of the things I have set out to do. I might not lose as much weight as I had previously hoped, but I'm ok with that. I mean mostly I wanted to start jogging, and I have been doing that!

And even though this summer is more than half way over, I still have so much more stuff planned! Like the Gaga concert, Bri coming out, turning 21, finishing up my second online class, and so forth. And of course some stuff for my Senior Honors Seminar. I've really done a lot so far, and I have so much more to do! It has been a great summer so far!

Oh yea! I never wrote this here, but I also got my wisdom teeth out! By an oral surgeon since they never came out themselves! It kind of sucked because I got it done while I was in NY, but it's good to have it done.

So now I just have to make sure I get the rest of my goals for summer finished! Alack, so much more to do!

Oh boy!

http://thingsstonerslike.tumblr.com/

Every time I look at this tumblr, all I want to do is smoke a blunt. It's bad.

Lady Gaga!!!!

I, Liz Deegan, am going to a Lady Gaga concert!

It's true! On August 3rd, the day before Bri leaves to go back to New York. This one event will make my summer awesome. I am so fucking pumped!!! This is going to be so so amazing.

Museum of Sex

When I was in NY, we went to the Museum of Sex! It was groovy!

Book #7 Nightlight: A Parody

"About three things I was absolutely certain. First, Edwart was most likely my soul mate, maybe. Second, there was a vampire part of him-which I assumed was wildly out of his control-that wanted me dead. And third, I unconditionally, irrevocably, impenetrably, heterogeneously, gynecologically, and disreputably wished he had kissed me."

Ok, so this book was hilarious. The beginning was much better than the end though. I feel like it kind of tapered off at the end. But, the beginning was so freaking worth it. So Belle Goose loved Edwart Mullen, and she's convinced he's a vampire. He's not really. Also, Belle's traits are exaggerated from Bella Swans. For example, she is so freaking clumsy. It's hilarious. Also, she thinks the world is like in love with her. She is so cocky. Like she'll say something like, "The whole class was looking at me, but probably for a different reason- I had a hologram patch on my backpack." Haha, so funny. There are so many parts where I wrote "Haha" in this book. However, as I said before, the ending wasn't as good. Like eventually she meets a real vampire and tries him out. But she realizes she really loves Edwart. It was sort of lame. Still funny, but not as funny as the beginning. It was definitely worthwhile.

Lulu

My new plant! She is a Dester Rose tree (?) or bush? I don't really know, but she's beautiful. Her name is Lulu. I can't wait until she is super healthy and growing. I am going to get some more plants. And eventually a fish. I bought some stuff for my apartment today. I bought another book case for my room, and now my room looks so much better. I am so excited about my plant!!

Stalking Milk

"Please stalk the milk." Bahaha. I feel like a jerk for laughing at this, because I shouldn't really laugh at people's lack of education. But, this is hilarious. Like all I can picture is a milk carton laying out by a pool, and me stalking it in my Kum & Go uniform. hahaha. I feel like there needs to be a drawing of this.

Student Loans!

So, I have been having lots of issues with Student loans recently. And by issues I mean I have been getting rejected from every single bank I apply to. Even when I add a cosigner, I get rejected. And I have been freaking out thinking that I must have some sort of ridiculously bad credit report, and fearing that I wouldn't be able to pay for school this semester.

So today, I decided to try Sallie Mae, which tends to have a higher interest rate, but usually accepts almost everyone. I applied. And I got rejected once again. I was literally in tears. It was awful. So then I started talking to Cat and putting her as my cosigner when she asked me what amount I was putting in for Gross income. I told her $8,000 since that is about how much I make in a year. And then she tells me that I am wrong and I need to put in the whole house income, which of course, includes her pay and moms. Alack. This is why I've been stressing out and being rejected with all of these loans. So now, I have my loans set up as much as I can do. And even though the interest rate it high, I am just going to freaking deal with it, because I don't need to worry for a while. When the time comes again to apply for loans, hopefully my interest rates will decrease.

Thank goodness for helpful sisters!

Missing.

I always seem to forget how good it feels to sit on the couch in NY and be surrounded by the four people I love in this world. I get used to being alone and living my routine, which I do love as well, but when I come back it's always so difficult. I think my brain represses how much I love being with my family so that I am able to survive out here. I hate loving two places and two lifestyles so much when they are so opposite from each other. I have no clue how to connect them. Trying to stop crying so that my eyes are not puffy for work. Alack.

Book #6 Dawn of the Dreadfuls

"'Oh, we can't have that, can we? We can't go around being impolite when we're about to be overrun by reanimated cadavers! Egad- the English! How can we face a problem squarely when we can't even bring ourselves to name it?'"

"And he continued to give Elizabeth looks that lingered so long that Mary even asked him once if he were attempting some Oriental form of mesmerism."

So this is like the prologue of "Pride and Prejudice and Zombies." It was written after, but it takes place before. It was also so hilarious. I read it yesterday on the plane ride home. This one is different because I didn't already know the plot, but it was in keeping with the whole style. I liked how there was still love interests, even though they went no where. Also, I liked how Lord Lumpley was so gross. It showed another side of nobles in this type of book. It was very funny. There isn't much more to say about it really.

Eek!

I haven't posted in such a long time! I've been so busy! But I saw this and decided it just HAS to be posted!

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Baha, College Humor is so amazing